This is not a new term; we've all heard it before but the more honest you get with yourself, the more true and the more significant this statement rings. Recently I found myself feeling frustrated, let down and disappointed in certain individuals that I look to depend upon in my life. But unlike years past it has become painfully clear to me how closely tied together are my own behavior, choices and decisions in my life to the way that I experience the world around me.
It has become CRYSTAL CLEAR to me that that which I object to, I have given life to; that which I judge, I have done; and that which I criticize, I have been guilty of. Again, this is nothing new BUT the more awake I become, the shorter the distance between my observation of my life and the reality of me as the creator of it.
What I can see is there is no one outside of me to deal with, to forgive or to get "right" with. There is no real need for deep process with another if I am willing to take complete ownership over my own experience. And there is absolutely no need to blame another human being ever for my pain, suffering and discomfort. Yikes! Here is my truth as I am experiencing it right now: life is all about alchemy and this alchemy is made possible by all of the elements that exist everywhere. By everywhere I mean within and without simultaneously but they are always housed within the scope of my consciousness.
Knowing there is only One, I must surrender into the spiritual practice of dealing with all of life right where I stand, right where I think, right where I AM. Each time that I return to this knowing and its reach and meaning; I recognize there is only one thing for me to do and this is it: forgive myself more and more quickly, be more patient with myself, be gentler with myself and absolutely, completely, with great abandon love myself more. Then, there in that place, in that moment, I begin to recreate my world from the depth of my being.
